whine*

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whine* i whine.i want wine.im so sad...today i was utterly shattered.i really am.sometimes i wonder,if only he knew how much i loved him.promises,lies i've received them all.but nothing of his sweet loving.today ms chin told us a story abt e giving tree.i hope i aint owaes e one giving to darling..sometimes,i hope he puts a little effort into showing some care and concern to me.cried at the parade square today before e singg of the national anthem and etc..i was heart broken,by his letter.it shone light onto how he felt..finally,some light. =) i was mirthful yet hurt.i never knew i hurt him dis much.i owaes thought i was gettg hurt.i realise...sometimes,he just keeps to himself.i wish he opens up.

i hope God or someone please help me..i was shock when vic told me she had started studying since e past few nights..its kinda freaky.not tt i dislike it or wot.but it really is..haha.but oh well,perhaps its cos i just havent been able to get the drive to study.e urgency.sharmaine sharmaine.how and wot are u going to do to help yourself? im distracted.

my heart has dropped from the twin tower..im glad things btween me and jo are ok now aft my ranting and scolding and screaming at macs today.i made a disgrace outta myself..but hey..im really drained nowadays.he really has bcome part of my life tt controls my emotions.i pray he pushes me to study.really pushes-but he aint tt presevere a person..sigh*

i love him,i really do.